I miss you….

Isaiah 55:6

Seek the Lord while He may be found, call upon Him while He is near

I can’t explain exactly how I’m feeling…all I can say is that I miss and long to be in His presence the way I used to…

It seems lately I  find myself in front of the t.v watchin all these reality shows and things that I had no interest in before….its so subtle how things come in to our lives again and slowly begin to take over….

I disconnected cable before because I had a problem with the many things that are on there and didn’t want my children learning from there….not saying that t.v is bad but a lot of the things that air….isn’t any good …and now I feel like I’m slowly being desensitized and things that used to bother me don’t anymore….and its grieving the Holy Spirit…..my walk with Christ has taken a back seat…and how did I get here?

Like I said..” subtle” and before you know it ….my language and thoughts began to change… I recognize it …..and I want Jesus more cause nothing that is on t.v or in the world can fulfill what Jesus Christ can….and I don’t want to be the person I was before…

One day,  I decided to take a walk around the small lake that  centers the middle of my town. I was in awe….of all its beauty, the lake with all its pretty ripples and trees …..how they dangled over the water ….it was all so beautiful…I just had to stop and take it all in….and as I stood there…I began to feel the presence of God and I just began to cry….He was still there and although with all my hectic and busy life…He was still waiting to dine and talk with me….I was battling with my walk and wasn’t reading the Word or spending time in prayer….maybe without realizing it, I had turned away from Him….

This past year has been a long and hard one but yet good at the same time if this makes any sense. I know in my heart that the Lord is still performing and working in me…and is preparing something good….I just didn’t realize how much I missed Him until that moment….nothing is like the father’s love…and how I missed Him…the world can turn their back on me…but He never has and never will….

We must endure and press in for the prize of the high calling….there are greater heights and blessings in Him ahead….we just have to keep going…

The vision of the drug rehab is getting closer and I’m becoming excited….I’m not thinking of a big place but would like to begin with a 5 bedroom house and begin to house 3 or 4 woman at a time…I would be sure to have services twice a week and mentor the women until they are built up in the Lord….and it would be by their choice when they would leave….I am so excited for this and trusting God,  to touch one life at a time….I’m not worried for anything else, I just know at that time, the workers and monies for this vision will all fall into place….

The place where I am presently is in high need for such a place…well I think there is such a high need everywhere….but I’m believing that this place will be my start…but of course that can change too…its one step at a time….

Proverbs 29:18

Where there is no vision the people perish

The vision….whatever vision that Lord has given you

As for the vision He has given me, it is for the single mothers, single woman who need help because of addictions who are weary and barely hanging on….

God has given us the tools which is His word and He has given us power which is the Holy Spirit which will lead us and guide us in to all truth. He has given us the baptism of His love that will extend to our communities and even to the ends of the earth.  We need to continue to walk in it and walk as He walked….

 I will never forget from where I came….He saved me when I wasn’t much to love, and when I was an addict and did  horrible things….But it was because of His love that saved me

I urge you that whatever vision He has given you…endure and keep pushing forward…He will keep you and strengthen you and even when you do go through dry times…He is still there….and no matter where we are….and where we go….as long as our heart and eyes are on Him….you are in His will and He is working out great things for you….sometimes the things we go through are hard to understand but know this….His ways and thoughts are higher….He is not surprised where you are, but is trying to bring us closer to Him…nothing is in vain…and all things are to build and edify …

If you …like myself have neglected the prayer closet and Him….we can return and seek Him tonight….He is here the moment we call….He desires a closer walk with us….it is so crucial to draw near, cause the days ahead are only going to get harder and it is only His word that will carry us through, so let us enter in and love Him with all our heart…..let us push aside the things that has taken His place and put Him first in our lives again….let us conform to His word and not to the ways of the world….

He is here in our midst and He hears our hearts and our prayers….